Cinnamon Roles

Cinnamon Roles
Stephanie Clark

You are bored and lonely
So you make some cinnamon roles
And you eat only the middle to fill the empty space
So what?
So you gain a few pounds
Who cares
So you die a disgustingly obese cat lady
At least there is death

You are bored, lonely and skinny
So you make some cinnamon roles
And you stare at them to fill the empty space
So what?
So you are lonely and deny yourself food
Because you think that’s why no one loves you
Who cares
So you withered away to nothing
All alone
At least you died skinny

You are bored and lonely
So what are you going to do about it?
Sit all alone?
So what?
So you call some friends
Who cares
No one answered
Everyone is busy
At least you have your tears

Your Future is Ringing

I was reading through some of my forgetten writings and ran across this. I think it aplies to life right now.

Your Future is Ringing
By Stephanie Clark

Phone is ringing
Don’t pick it up
It isn’t worth the energy
Sit and let the machine get it

It stops
You go to it
Check the caller id
No one important

You want to cut off the world
Don’t want to talk to anyone
Don’t want to see their face
Or hear their voice

Someone is IMing you
You acted happy
But you have no energy to make small talk
The conversation is ended

You feel like being secluded
But at the same time
You want that one-person with you
To tell you life will be fine

They aren’t online
They barely know you
They don’t talk to you
You want to cry

You go on with your life
You decide to forget them
But it isn’t so easy
You just can’t cut them loose

Why won’t they notice you?
You are being selfish
They have a life
But you don’t care

You long for them
They don’t know
You won’t tell them
You want to die or cry or both

The phone rings
You ignore it
It’s them
It’s your future
Are you home?

I've decided that this will be my creative personality outlet. Npw, let's see if that will really happen.